Totally weird. i hope it is not cancer.

its on the top of the left foot.

Oh my god, I feel so sad. I am so not blissful unlike the carmelites at claire lamarche and everywhere. Just a deep sadness that we must all face what I have known all my life since Toronto. Like many, I will have no funeral. no family gathering. no nice time to reminisce from my peers. the times are not easy and what is to come leaves no room for my popularity. I will be rediscovered simply, far away or much later. i am a nobody but I am glad you read this blog with us all, with God especially, who truly speaks through these pages. Like all the marginalized people of Canada, I am invisible. It is strange to think I existed just to know my god once more. but truly, this seems to be the case. I knew none of you because you refused to get close to me. Paco especially who is dam crazy.

But yea, so was I, so was I....and look at me now, all at peace albeit sad to no end for everyone else.