When i did consider this avenue for the first time in my life, just now, walking down the road, it really depressed me. It felt like a genuine embrace of it but it was a treason to all my lifetime and what I have been following and living and believing. Of what made me ultimately so happy with God: I have chosen so many things in my life. And been consequential. I pity the women who only feel what I felt about an hour ago about men in their identity as autonomous being.