...it is: Buddhism as a nun.

This is, trust anouk, says God and Tara, THE trip to earn freedom from maternity for many lives.

I have asked or said being a mama cat would be okay in meditation only. It will take forever before I am reborn woman and mother. This is okay and I dont miss it one bit. In fact, I embrace it totally with ultimate devotion to billy, my grandpa phonse reincarnated after his life of phonse. Never being maternal with humans that much was a prerequisite after such parents. Mom TOTALLY killed it in me. So much so, that TO THIS DAY, I never want baby humans as a woman. Strange boys to train to understand clever dogs like Billy at 4 are welcomed. But that is all. No family members recognizeable in humans as babies anymore.