I spent the whole morning desperate to read someone's message to us. My old 75 years old wise friend emailed and so did our nephew on my side. It was perfect truly: two darling emails by two superb people including one I am back at getting to know. My sisters in law are not getting back to me, one of them anyway. Everyone has fairly big responsibilities and is simply busy. 

I have no idea when I will go to bed. I am on a strange caffeine buzz and cigarettes intakes outrageous all night. I may take a bath and try to sleep a bit. It is already 11H30am. What a discombobulated day for having spent the whole night up!