I am so foolish with my beliefs and fears and stories but I hope they entertain. They are my wild writer's mind at times.

I have to quiet down my fears and anxieties. Today is a very strange sadness: I really miss my grandparents big time. They died 29 and 30 years ago. They would have been very saddened by what i had to go through with my health and the system.

I miss them so much my heart squeezes.

I have to pray to Buddha more nowadays. I am passed my identification with the energy and realize he is my Teacher. In him, the dhamma and the sangha I take refuge. May all sentient beings benefit from my writing eventually, dear buddha. And May we thrive in compassion, more wisdom to gain, and kindness. please Buddha, in you I pray and take refuge and ask for teachings and guidance. i have been very very foolish recently and too stone probably.