I feel like I need a review of my last years' habits. I am so unhealthy in truth,as a huge smoker, and my last hikig trip was 2007. It was canoeing.

I would have loved to keep up the outdoor sports like snowshoeing which I adored  in my late twenties. But I broke my spine and foot: no more sports.

I am finally, after much sanity in the last month, having an existential crisis. I am sanely looking at my life and it scares me a little. Propsects and Future is grim. May Buddha light my way with hubby and the pets and may we be protected from ill health and poverty. Om mani peme hung