How disappointed I was in 1998, my first psychosis at 21.

By now, my view on it is radically transformed. I have taken my mind to its limit of bearability in extracting cool visions, feelinsg, states of mind, etc for many years. I now wish to live the rest of my life practicing kindness and tolerance and gaining wisdom and compassion practice daily more and more. And teachings. I have heard many wonderfully worthwile psychologists better than many shrinks seen in BC, who were simply devote tibetan buddhist white nuns.

Thubten chodron and her 100 hours mp4 is awesome.

It is so long I never finished it. Very interesting human insights. This is one virtuous woman though I disagreed with her teaching for detachment and non attachment.  She said to doubt the object of our attachment, even a person, is that hot in truth. That is just cheating. You forget that everyone is a buddha when you look at loved ones as not as hot as being worthwhile of your attachment....not very enlightened practice  but very wise to say it because i suspect it works for some people of lesser capacity.