...It gives me resolve and courage: life is not easy, and developing a compassionate heart so deeply that you dont need to suffer misery to understand others who do, is very very hard. I have to gladly embraced the lower depths again and again in my future balck lady life if there is such a thing for me as a black lady life next. This will carve a depth of understanding unequal for me up to then. Merit, according to tibetan buddhism, makes us change ur kammas.
I was so ignorant and still am. It is almost crass and embarassing how ignorant I am about everyone's shoes and walking in their shoes.
I embrace walking in the worst off classes of society's shoes forever here and there.
It is the ONLY way to carve compassion so deep in our hearts, that we become forever sane in this mad sufferign world of samsara and hatred and greed and become kind no matter how shitty we feel or how very priviledged we truly are. I have not earned to be sane forever yet but I have made huge advance for this to one day, in the future, be the case. It is turly really okay to be a bit crazy but loved. Certainly not the worst kamma ever.
This is my future life named Annie, according to the myth.
Hubby , somewhere in his past or future, will be my favourite and only daughter as Annie. Nice story, right? I get to boss him around after our failing out east. And out west. The love is true.