I am suddenly a bit down at the lack of connection with old friends in these years. All because of my illness that made them run away from me at the first sign of unpleasantness to them. This kamma of mine sucks socially. All this because of my illness. It is a downer and brings me down each time I realize, once again, that I have no friends who knows me from way back anymore. It makes it even harder to feel normal like I used to in my twenties.