Alright, I may pull one of those infamous 36 hours today. Hubby always gets nervous when I dont sleep because I told him,and it is turh, it is THE best sign of mental health- when we make sure ot haave regular rest and sleep.

In turht I feel so very sane and lucid right now in many ways more than enlightened, just clear thinking beyond all the fucked up things I have lives like many people unlucky. I dont want to tell crazy things again....sigh...it depresses me each time I go slightly nutty now, Buddha....you have lost your crazy wisdom touch, anouk? You are a good master of it in fact. Never fear the loopy feelings that dont make you angry nor jealous. ALWAYS question what makes you furious. Dont beat up anybody if you do, always repent alone with god without sex nor fetchism. You are missing another importat step and criteria...never be cruel.