My last task is to support and be there for everyone in the house. Such is the fabulous skill we all can develop once we have mostly healed from past traumas and bad life choices or not. Bceause he was crazy wise and deeply admirative of me I think, (yes, he is fucked up I am telling you), hubby never called an ambulance when I was catatonic here and there for two years.  He trusted my smarts deeply I believe. This is WHAT I was always hoping for: to be allowed harmless real crazy wisdom and visions at home. My physical body totally was ill trhoughout many years here as my brain was focusing on visions and kept all its energy for those specific states. THIS is the bEST thing hubby could have ever done for me: let me explore visions at home no matter how truly fucked up I looked like. And was truly, lets admit it. THIS is why I want to marry hubby again, but when I am a man only. No more ever as a woman.