I am so fucking happy with my relatively easy life financially. When I say easy, I mean that it was not stupid poverty for no reason- i learned a ton from it. You shall all make the vow, if you want to be buddha too one day, to be reborn a beggar for a while. It is super interesting if you are no a drug addict and tough physically, in good shape. This is where you learn about the country you are living in. And this is when you can become a spy. No cops will help you for the longest time. You are alone with them gansgters too. But why are you happy anyway depsite trtures? You are a buddha, so you are beyond them in mind spirit and, most importantly, peace on earth. You become a truth of artisan of God. Dont ever kill if cops ask you to. No one  TRULY shall never ever fucking kill a human being if you read this blog. Unless you are Jackson who never finally gets blood on his hands anymore. Way better for his mental health he says.