I would stay circa 2021 I was given many opportunities to chit chat close with unlucky souls living in drug addictions, homelessness and poverty. One became a close friend I hope inherits much of our money if we ever die.

It does feel like shit to feel unable to help anyone because you are so fucked up all your life or no one wants your help. I think this may have to do with my ego more than my truth. we all have to accept times and lifetimes where we are dependent more than giving.

Of course, we shoudl always strive to give no matter how shitty we feel.

But certain life we are too mangled for whatever punishment or kamma, to truly be saviours or seen as such though we were seen as a god previously in another life. My reincarnation stories illustrates the total YOYO rebirths most of us must face in terms of how broken we are each lifetime by traumas. I think life is suffering as buddha said, and the cool thing is some lifetime are a bit more easier on traumas than others when we need a break and we ask God for one next.  Do you understand? as Tenzin palmo always asks when she teaches.