Hubby really is weird to think I hate him. he is full of ideas about me, how I mind fuck him on purpose, how I hate him, how I abuse him,how I msitreat him....it is mad he has zero accountability for his own grown up behviour and points always the finger in such nasty ways at me. Full of ill intent towards him is how he sees me. It is depressing to the max. He thinks everyone is out to get him. That he is an eternal victim. Itis so depressing, so very very depressing. It makesme want to get drunk again. He makes me, at last, very unhappy today. My moral is strong, like mom noticed, but I see no resolution in sight with this narcissist. Whats the point of supporting and loving him if he never sees any of it nor feels good thanks to my attentions? He does not benefit from my love. This is very sad and a failure at our marriage- to this day he wants divorce for some reason I dont know. He asked for divorce the night of our wedding. He is that unstable.