Their miser spirit and ungenerous heart and mind really left me fucked up. but they do really love me the best of their small capacity where when times come to really share, they get scared and still act mistrusting with me.

Only pity is welcomed with them.

The fact is, holy children are born to small people all the time. This is the generous spirit of God on earth. Perhpas it was not a punishment to grow up with them. I have heard of PLENTY of worst families recently and all throughout my life. I have simply been tested and did not react very wisely with them for the longest time, always rebelling against them in my mind. Now I have asked God to help me always have pity for my douche bag families I will continue to have forever. If I had been holier, I would not have hated them so much for so long with ressentment. lack of pity. And I was a child.