Now I feel like nothing surprising that much could happen to us all.

This reassures me immensely.

I am totally not crazy simply: I am an illuminated.

The real craziness is when you are violent and hateful. the rest is just mental adjustments to life in samsara until we awake.

I so want to laugh at my death whenever and however form it takes. I think it is hilariously funny in the end. Though very few people will laugh or be surprised.