After years, decades, of indifference from everyone in quebec, friends included, I cannot conceive of ever stepping on this land without deep deep sadness.

Why would i inflict such sadness on me now that i am totally happy?

I am no longer nostalgic for quebec,so why would i ever return? I can speak to my parents to my heart's delight daily in bc. This contact is way healthier than me going back there.

For my own mind.

and heart.