My mind refuses to let me go to bed early and I am afraid I will stay up yet again tonight. My schedule is all messed up.  After a good 6-7 months sleepin deliciously early and waking up early, I am a mess yet again.

The general feeling nowadas is a lingering sadness.

At myself and how I have viewed people for years, always often judging them when in fact,i had no clue what their motivations were. I heard my mother very very clearly like when I was a child on the phone today. She seems very willful and nice.

I felt privileged to hear her mind heart so clearly today. Her truth of energy as a person, a woman.