He cannot be me: I am too fucked up. But I may very well have been the 15th.

I have spoken in person to the 14th so I am super thrilled.

He appears infinitely at peace for a glamourous dalai lama. He never talks of himself and ONLY says deep wise kind things.

That is NOT my energy by now.

I feel super young and angry in my language.

I am a bit discouraged at what is waitig for me....the indian bikkhu life is a lot of work.

But I have asked to practice selflessness deep.