I came home and skipped the walk after I had an iced latte at the cafe.  Very wet and I had to get ready for 2pm so bathed and washed my hair for 20 minutes.

I smoke only outside the cigarettes today and have decreased by 3x the amount.

My good friend D was getting his gallblader removed today. He already had his thyroid removed many years ago.

And other organs.

Very unlucky with his physical health. He does not smoke nor drink.

May he feel better soon and may the surgery be a success!

As for myself, I cannot believe how very nutty I became for many years when drinking....all these predictions of future lives so silly and pessimistic.

The 15th will probably not be as good as the 14th, who is incomparable, but I really dont think she will smoke cigarettes and pot...

I was out of my tree to foretell this silly story. Same with all my heroic stories. I have to keep it for books for kids, not real life contemplations...ah! I cannot believe God let me become so nutty when drinking by now...what a shame! It is since 2006 that I have become unfiltered in emails. Very shameful and embarassing. What a stupid way to have spent my last 20 years: drinking so heavily to the point of mad rantings about the future and past....and telling weird things to friends and loved ones...in emails only though.

What a waste of time!