May this refuge help me quit cigarettes and drinking heavily. Wouldn't it be amazing if I could completely quit cigarettes before I develop oral cancer? It would be, with all my books and paintings, my biggest ever accomplishment since quitting it, in 2000, for 2 years. I always loved smoking cigarettes so picked it up  again , two years later, foolishly.

Today  will do me good to hang out socially with a stranger from the street, a neighbour who wants to get to know me. I have lost most of my social skills I had perfected by now. Time to get back into normality with people. May Buddha and my refuge vow help me become a wiser and kinder and a smokeless saner person.

More sober too basically.

The rain is falling, constant, today. Hubby and the mutts will return within 20 minutes. I am surprised they went for so long in that bad weather...