I am still off booze completely.

Its been about 10-14 days.

It is now almost 18H30 and I usually take the dogs at 7-8pm for a dog walk. No rain tonight but an alarm for a car keeps ringing.

It finally stopped. Good thing. Thanks owner of car.

I am feeling a bit more giddy tonight. I think it is from much sadness recently and intense love. It kind of drained me a bit. The fear of heavy disfigurement and not being able to talk or eat anymore s very real with oralcancer as my mouth is so sensitive after 20 years of alcool a few times a week and 2 to 3 packs a day...

I feel totally helpless at stopping or controling forever my smoking..it is scary.