I am so riddled with impatience, it is my biggest shame.

but I have spoken to very nice ladies today and I am super thankful for their grace and merit dealing with me. May they all live at ease, healthy and happy and at peace. I am thankful for this life to hae stuff to work on ajorly, and still have the capacity and free time and ease overall, to be conscious about my faults and work at transforming their energy into something better and beneficial for all.

I suddenly totally love the samira staff clerk. She has been super nice to me though she hung up on me at first because I screamed like a maniac on the phone. The day has been tense and full of mistakes.

Hubby said I was unwell because I was freaking out...I am on meds dumb ass, because I cannot deal with life's foibles anymore! Communication wit BJG has been more and more confusing lately. I dont even understand his complaints about me. Scary how it makes zero sense to me...what he complains about in me.