Basically, what we have in our couple, hubby and I, is too slightly rather crazy humans with lots of devotion for each other in the last 30 years. So it kinda works for raher good karma of love deep in the end. Despite or crazy streaks and illnesses of the psyche kind.

Mother was amazing tonight and basically said, though not that bluntly, that she did not really love me as a young child. But, she said, she always knew I was exceptionally bright. I always thought her hatred due to jealousy, growing up. She is marvelous and I know for sure I would have made a way the heck worst mother if I had been forced to bear a child than she ever was, in the end. She said the phone call made her feel better. She said she and dad probably broke me and that is why I was initially so weird. I told her to stop believing such nonsense, and that karma is more explanatory than such nonsense.  This is what made her feel better I think. She wants to stay home next winter instead of spain, to try volunteering. Everyone has much much evolved between her and me...