I got really high this morning. Know if ever I was the 14th, it is a future life of mine. Maybe a reward for this life as Lilou? It really feels uncomfortable to think the masses could venerate us like they do with the 14th. i dont ever want that for myself and it is very boring and just work work work. But mainly the main reason I am apprehensive of ever being reborn as old as the 14th, is his physical weakness so intense yet he performs daily. This is his practice of humility: relying so very much on others help to walk.

Just a human, but a very excellent one. Very very sane and compassionate.

I have encouraged everyone throughout the years on this blog to identify with people in history they feel drawn to. This led me to say that Hubby will one day be Charles Darwin and Lewis Carroll. Also that an ex neighbour, Daryl, is a future Thomas Merton. I met a superbly cute pakistani at the gas station i was led to believe was a reborth of saint francis of assisi. I belived, mad as ahatter circa 2018 or 2019, that the kids next door were Jesus of Nazareth in a coold reborth as a nobody at 10 years old and Shakyamuni as his sister of 6. Now that you see my mind, I think you all want to try a crazy wisdom life one day where you can be without a job and not homeless all along anyway and heal from heavy traumas.

To think we could one day be as fabulously helpful to others as our heroes, is a HUGE boost to our courage. I really really have no clue why I say I will one day be Jesus. I think we should all, one day, be Jesus. The wolrd would know peace. This is my message: we shall all be Jesus. Of course I will never live his exact Nazareth life. But he is super alive in my heart and I pray to him with devotion. I say: lets all be Jesus- forgive and be of service to unworthy people (our Judas and better people too) if we must serve, simply because that is Jesus' life teachings and we emulate him when we finally reach our best. I really really have no clue what Jesus' rewards was after his Jesus life for himself. He either travel trhough space and became an alen forever Or travel throught history.. Or simply becamse pure energy forever. Without all his rebirths ever taking all place on earth anymore.

All I know is I will have very influencial lives on humanity of my living too, and in history.I am not a douche bag damned forever to never awakened. They exist but they are stuck in samsara and we see them either as fucked up sick people on the street or powerful leaders just before that. We must forgive them and yes, sometimes, serve them. 

Is it fair? please, think of it differently. You are practicing selfless forgiveness. No one cares about the damned fucks we must serve. We dont do it for them necessarily, we do it for God and to practiced enduring unfair treatment and forgiving anyway.And serving.

Some of you will have to serve nasty people with your trade and labour. For those of you who will suffer extremes (not that many I must say), and who will go completely nust with despair, see your nasty bosses as God Herself or Himself when they talk. Take repsonsibility for every thing they accuse you of because you are thinking they are God quite simply, when he is punishing you. Do you see what this super mental crazy wisdom power does? it makes you 'see no evil , hear no evil, and say no evil' even though some of you will be in hell. Basically, you see God in a bad mood and listen to him and never argue with him. i have been there. And I got quite close to God for real thanks to this practice when we went through hell, hubby and I. You know what I think it does? It protects your soul to take full repsonsibility for accusations that are lies deep down. You are denying evil any grip on your soul by accepting whatever they say. You are accepting that the wolrd is now crazy. But that God makes sense. May the force be with you all in hell to come.