Oh how sad I am right now but thankful.

And so very calm in my body and mind and heart, and thankful.

BJG truly is hostile to me and thinks I have terrible view of him and dont respect him.

He is very foolish with what he thinks I give him.

He sees no help coming from me in helping himlive more serenely and happily. That is because he is arrogant and too angry. He refuses to learn from me. Or even from Life, it seems like. I am very sad for us because we may not see each other again for a long long time, and I cannot help him it is obvious, in this lifetime, to awaken to peace.

He is too arrogantand righteously angry at nothing all the time. And he is a pompous proud cock who demands respect or hell follows. Though he calls me stupid here and there. And crazy. And a useless drunk.