Yes, I would say this is now accepted by me as a way of life too. But it is not so much for myself that i am sad. It for all of us as foolish sentience who are caught up in cyclical rebirth, ups and down, from popular paradise to depth of hell in shit self esteem.

Or whatever other extermes from one life to the next we are choosing stupidely. I totally agree with Sadhguru at the sad fact that most people, in this world, will love you ONLY if you are useful to them. or perceived useful to them.  I have found no one is willing to share their wealth with me in canada or support my shop, though eveyone is rich and knows I cannot work, was a hobbo, and overal lived a way harder life than all of them.

Except maybe Danny's life. People are downright stupid with each other. And will only love you if it is easy for them to do so. Or they feel they get much out of it.

My parents have been sublime in howthey have proven their devotion to my well being and loving me. They never paid shit for me as an adult, and did not want to help ever with brian. That is fair: I am no damned unlucky stupid woman and I had a life to live away from them. Anyway, I did not get along with them for 40 years.

I am blessed with this mother I thought hateful of my smarts as a young child.

I am blessed with a dad who laughs at my jokes so rude and crude at times, though he totally is not of the same values as me.

We had much fun and jokes about me ever saying I was Jesus to them. They are lovely.