Every time I have prayed with fervour for something in the last month, spent some serious time dedicated to shakyamuni or medicine buddha, asking for a specific help, I was rewarded with the shittiest outcome soon after. Not wanting to fall on ice- I fell on ice. ASking for sobriety to Medicine Buddha at puja and meditation last night for an hour- I wake up in sweat, from a terrifying dream, and stay up all night smoking 7 cigarettes an hour for 4 hours!