I am watching videos of Mingyur Rinpoche in 2018: he has really changed since I last saw him in 2008. He is even better, way better in his english and instructions on meditation. It is so clear to listen to him and such a joy. 

I have the maybe wrong view that death will be pleasant. For some reason, i totally forget the sufferings that inevitably without meditation we encounter at such time of degradation. I am thinking about death a lot today. My own and that of BJG who is 10 years and  half older than me. Thinking about BJG's passing freaks me out so I focus on my own. Which means, I focus on being alone now in the present, though I am not.