Yup, I had too many tensions in my body to fall asleep quickly tonight and i dont want to wait when my head touches the pillow. I want this day to be over very fast and very soon,. And to sleep in past 10am tomorrow so I dont see hubby fo a while.He is in total bad shape, both physically and mentally (his temper and unreasonableness in blaming everyone but himself for everything problematic in his life. It is as if thee is a normal button of 'being held accountable for one's action' which is missing in his brain. It is the most major flaw any man could ever have: never taking responisbility for his mistakes. He is just sliding into his bed. I should surely do the same in the next half hour.  I have detested this rage from Hubby tongiht becuas ei wanted to quit pot but not cigarette. I smoke two packs  a day, it is a major achievement to quit that amount of cigarettes and I have not been able to do it since at least 2001 and 2005. In 30 years, the longest sobriety of hubby is about once, a month. I started smoking pot at 30. And stopped for a few months (4) here and there recently. My mental health was just as crappy and I started experiencing hardcore terrifying PTSD nightmare without any pot for three weeks, last time (Januray 2023). As bad as when i was a 5 year old child with night terrors. After 10 days of what was now a full blown chronic ngithmare disease, I returned to pot and all came back to normal. Every doctor says pot is making me psyhcotic online. Maybe. But I am happy and sleep way way better (there is no comparison possible).