I am so stressed out about my mental health. I never recovered from the traumas at st jo between 2006-2007...but I dont understand why not. I had the meds, the stable relative environment, the best social worker case manager imaginable...Of course, then hubby and I, we moved to MTL then finally BC, where we had no support whatsoever and it was a rough beginning in Surrey, Walley Bolivar Heights. 

I am totally stressed out about how ill I truly am. It is bad, man! It takes these weeks of lucidity to truly understand the extent of my illness to myself...though many people in my entourage suspect or know  it and cut me off because of it. I am UNBEARABLY UNPLEASANT in emails too often. Like real angry mad for no reason, accusing people of pedophilia and bs crazy shit like that...that was a while back but still. That shit is crazy! Freaky! Everyone runs away from it of course!