The night has almost completely fallen on our street. Still a faint light in the air.

It is suddenly dawning on me that hubby will most probably lose his job. How freaky for us all!

May Buddha inspire us all to be exceedingly frugal and happy wiht it all, all together and in love with Life and each other. I trust God will never abandon us by now. We have come too far to go back to hell on earth together or into homelessness, God forbid I hope. I will continue fasting and being sober. I had my first and only small joint at 8pm today. No booze whatsoever. Less cigarettes so far too. It is a TOTAL make over of my lifestyle that will become necessary so I am preparing and adjusting already as well as praying and gaining strenght of resolve to stay drink free at leats forever or very very little.

So far so good in the last week. Amen!