Yes, because this life I feltlike such a douche bag that I MUST have come from a previous life where I was a princess.

I always understood this life as punishment for vanity. And anger. All my life since a long long time ago, this has been clear to me.

So tonight I want to confess imply that I was the 15th in my past life. I keep saying how amazing my reign work was.  In its own way, I was totally of the crazy times we are about to face worldwide. dont pardon your dalai lama for having been vain unless you realize how fucked up she was reborn with a shit shit self esteem, far from temptations of vanity and pride. A total make up.

I had ONE real bad death as the 15th that saved me though I broke so many vows: i die lynched by a crazy indian mob. I cannot belive God would have already made me endure such a death: i dont feel mature enough for that. But whatever, it may have happened in my past and I jjust died horribly simply. Only to be reborn a douche bag crazy all her life who ultimte awakes enough again to make sense and be helpful in buddhism. This life was definitely a punishment. Recall this: no matter, or maybe even more so,how famous you are, you are always ultamitely judged severely by God only as he is the one to see in your motivations. I was no foolish dali lama though.Just not enough disciplin of austeity and espeiclly especially,truth of humility. I was treated like a goddess and it got to my head. I died young too,so I never had time to ripen into wisdom calm. Just crazy wisdom to the fullest with love and kindness. The 15th is special truly in how very wild she will be. and stubborn about being wild. She wants tibetans to start feeling good despite the times and realizes meditation is too much disciplin for everyone, so she encoruages everyone to smoke dope. She reminds everyone of their celibacy vows though pretty neatly but not as well as the 14th. She carries the burden of her own choices in her teachings. She si completely responsible for her kamma in this life? It was for sure punishment, ama la and bikkhuni. But aftre all this vanity was finally exhausted, i found complete holiness in my mind heart enugh to perform consciously miracles with witnesses. so the 15th is excellent for mysticism, but too wild and young to be really a matriarch.

Be compassionate with your reincarnated lamas. i am thinking of a very very simple non monk in every way yangsi in the digo khyentse lineage. He is not very wise and deep with wisdom of old times. But he tries darn hard to be honest. And as he says, that is special for an average lama. So though some may scuff at his lack of intelligent pristine essence for lack of a better decsription, they all hear his heart and his motivation. he confesses to his students which is not kosher of course and a sign of weakness and loneliness far from God. But in any way, we love him this yangsi. Because he was chosen by the kammapa.