I finally slept last night but woke up at 2H30am after having gone to bed at 3pm. totally upside down and it has not happened for at least one or two years.

The sleep was aweful and I slept alone: both dogs where upstairs.

I kept dreaming while waking up thinking robert redford was very boring. I have no idea why.

I always liked robert redford: he ismothers hollywood favourite.

Today i had two epiphany. The most remarkable one was to, for the first real deep time in almost 30 years, think i was nothing different than everyone in my family in terms of virtues. It occured to me that to each their own virtues, simply. I debated whether i had simply been a snob all my life with them, due to their small ambitions of virtues. But truly today, for a sustained good 30 minutes twice, I contemplated deeply this truth: we are no more or less virtuous than one another.What a terrible thing to have ever debated about on my own about everyone in my family after i was a hobbo.