How vain we would become and sinful if we thought only good things of our smarts all throughout our lifetime at each specific moment.

Traumas have made my sense of humour for a while really dubious... I never was cruel dark humour fan but I became utlra stupid in my humour. To myself anyway as I had zero friend and was living with crazy hubby in BC.

The complete shame I felt at my humour, secretly since I was the only one witnessing my mind, was so dripping with hatred it was aweful. Brrrr. Such a bad childhood mother effect decades later with hateful hubby who is sick but great however unlike mother. Anyway, by the way, dont be ashamed of your humour unless it is hateful. If you feel really really dumb it is because you are in serious traumas. Be good to yourself. Dont feel shame. Do like me: I figured I was about the IQ of a mentally challenge kid at some point in my humour. It turned out to have been a fine experience despite the initial shame. i learned much about being stupid and slow by observation of my own humour and mind when heavily into flahsbacks fo childhood. We have much to learn from this blog I think says a stupid policeman or probably policewoman....The monks walking for peace I now hear their truth: forgive yourslef. Not your sins of course. But your own limitations.