Woke up being yelled at by hubby for no reasons...sigh, it is so tough to be treated so badly for no reason because he is a bully.
So very fucking boring
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i truly wish for him to lose us all...his disrespect is immense and out of this wolrd and uncalled for each time.
How I wish to leave him one day for real. I am stuck totally with him in this one lifetime. In all eternity, I will truly never remarry him again despite all his help- too much bullying to feel on top for himself. He is certainly forbidden to have any romance with me when I am a woman forever. he demanded it with how he treats me in this life - I have made up my mind about him in eternity and told God. God always gives me what I ask for genuinely. I wont hear of him for many many lifetimes. He fucked up.
It is certainly not because you provide everything for people who need help that you can treat them with disrespect. I am satisfied but mostly thanks to the inlaws and the pets. And a few cool super nice male friends.
A rebirth is necessary. I really dont have time for arrogance....and THAT is his deep deep problem. He treats everyone to it, including his sister who cooks for him when he visits her. It is his downright pathology.
P.S. BJG is very fun though so he is allowed romance with me when I am a man. He will be a man too one day and we will be gay. I wont be faithful to him and he will die raped to death in that life. He may be a future giant for real. Just too pathologically arrogant as BJG. I said to his dad that BJG had been lewis carroll and darwin. Idont know about lewis carroll but I believe it for darwin. We all know Darwin was a sweetie pie. And Brian adulates him and studied him much in his BJG life. He simply is not my ultimate romantic guy. I have many others for that, and I am sorry to say that truth of romance DEMANDS complete respect. I dont ressent my life with him whatsoever thanks to God. I have learned muchmuch with this marriage and it was very free and fun overall. BJ will always be a favourite close to me in the future. Just no more ever ever romance when I am a woman will be allowed. I have an advice for you everyone: treat everyone with respect whom you love. You avoid much much mistake especially when you dont realize how very holy they are. Le us remind you that I did two miracles with witnesses. This is how holy I have become ultimately. BJG is totally unaware of it all though I told him for sure. He has no self awareness. When you dont know, be mild.