I had not seen BJG that sick as today for a couple of weeks if not more. i doubt he takes his full dose of meds. If i ask, it will be more yelling so i say fuck it- he made his path and I cannot help him more. I am accepting that he does not love me much at all anymore:too angry- he loves yelling at everyone rather than being peaceful and kind. When he drives, he spends his time giving the finger to other dirvers who drive bad according to him. Or cussing them. He is all war-like, angry and ready to scream and fight. I am afraid there is zero I can do given that he does not love me. if he loved me, he could hear my peace extended to him, my deep love of him and my wise counsel at times about life and accountability.